Bad night

Had a great bday and a wonderful Thanksgiving...have a lot to be thankful for but it still makes me feel sorry for myself :/ been crying for an hour and its just that I miss someone I used to talk to daily and even though I consider myself in a long distance relationship I still feel so alone :( everyone has someone here and I don't. One of my biggest fears is dying alone and I don't want that. I don't want to fell sorry for myself either but that's what depression does.

My sugar was also really high today...over 400! That's really serious and really bad. If its still bad when I wake up then I will go to the ER. If its not one problem it's another :/ 

I need a pity party bad