I don't know how much more I can take

I want my pain to go away..I want to stop crying all day...I want to be happy :( I thought our talk was going to resolve things..but you can't resolve anything if you aren't willing to talk. It's like I hit a dead end again. I know he loves me and he should know how much I love him..but the mind games need to stop. I can't keep doing this. I got so scared at work today because I started getting lil chest pains and it freaked me out. I didn't say anything to anyone because it didn't last long, bus scared me none the less. I was so excited when we decided to talk today..loved hearing his voice..then it just turned to shit. I don't know what to do from here..I'm lost