Ohhhh almost forgot..

My next tattoo will be..

from my elbow to my wrist on the outside of my right arm :) Just dunno when Im gonna do it.

Sneaking in...

Just when you thought I wouldn't be back ;)

Good news..we got our hours back at work so Im making 40hrs again woohoo :P
Now Im just spoiled cuz I was used to getting an extra day off and shorter hours lol blah I guess I will survive :D

Moms bday is on Wednesday..we're having a surprise party for her next weekend and I hope she won't be too shocked :P She's going to be 60! I know she's going to be emotional because Daddy would have been 60 in a few weeks and I know she misses him so much :( She's done so much for all of us and I wish I could do more for her. Will definitely post pics later :)

Issey is on skype with me reading my blog and asking me about something in 2009 lol He was singing to me earlier (should upload that huh). I told him Im going to kidnap Baraka whenever I make it to Maldives..she's tooo cute!

Soo I started playing War Commander and I really like it but I spent waaaaay too much money on it :O I removed paypal from my payment options lol I have a disease :( it's addicting though..didn't think it would be but it is lol 

Here's some updated pics..I let Amanda chop most of my hair off :) it's only hair..it grows back lol

Mwahs

Been ignoring this site again :/ Had a really shitty past couple weeks..Someone I love, my best friend, hasn't spoken to me in about a month (other than fighting) and it makes me extremely sad. We didn't used to go a day without talking and now it's like we don't know each other. I found out I was lied to..which hurt more than anything. I don't know what to trust anymore. I hope we can salvage our friendship..would hate to think some stupid fucked up game ruined that.

I've been talking to someone everyday..he tells me he loves me and I like feeling wanted/loved..I like that he will drop everything he's doing just to spend time with me. I don't want anyone hurt and I am being completely honest about how I feel...just think its gonna get complicated for everyone :S He is really sweet and makes me smile..and he knows the little things that make me happy :) I love talking to him and I care about him..but whatever I do, someone will get upset or hurt. I need a long vacation.

Oh..Bella started 4th grade. She's growing up so fast :( sometimes I wish she was still a tiny baby :P I will be trying to see if the invitro is still covered through our insurance and if it is, I will be trying it. Giving it one last shot this year..I really want to get pregnant and I want to be a mom more than anything :( wish me luck!

If I were a lesbian..

I would sooo attack her :P Radeo is soo fucking sexy!

Im a dumbass

I really am..Im sick of being treated like Im invisible unless you want something. Just tired of everything and wonder why I put so much feeling and caring into it when it doesn't feel like Im getting it back anymore :/ someone slap the shit outta me please

Slacking again..

Been exactly a whole month since I've blogged..need to change that. Things are going ok for me..He isn't speaking to me..again. One day he will realize what he's doing..I hope.

Work is better, we got more hours so Im back to full time in 2 weeks. YAY =] Ive also been taking all my meds like Im supposed to and I think it's actually helping a lot. I can definitely feel a difference now. On the downside (if you really consider it a downside) I have been drinking more. No more than 2 mixed drinks a day and it's not every day, so I don't consider it to be THAT bad.