Been ignoring this site again :/ Had a really shitty past couple weeks..Someone I love, my best friend, hasn't spoken to me in about a month (other than fighting) and it makes me extremely sad. We didn't used to go a day without talking and now it's like we don't know each other. I found out I was lied to..which hurt more than anything. I don't know what to trust anymore. I hope we can salvage our friendship..would hate to think some stupid fucked up game ruined that.

I've been talking to someone everyday..he tells me he loves me and I like feeling wanted/loved..I like that he will drop everything he's doing just to spend time with me. I don't want anyone hurt and I am being completely honest about how I feel...just think its gonna get complicated for everyone :S He is really sweet and makes me smile..and he knows the little things that make me happy :) I love talking to him and I care about him..but whatever I do, someone will get upset or hurt. I need a long vacation.

Oh..Bella started 4th grade. She's growing up so fast :( sometimes I wish she was still a tiny baby :P I will be trying to see if the invitro is still covered through our insurance and if it is, I will be trying it. Giving it one last shot this year..I really want to get pregnant and I want to be a mom more than anything :( wish me luck!