I keep saying I'm going to keep up with this and I never do. It's like my New Years resolutions lol
So much has changed..I left my job at Walgreens and am now working at Remedi Sr Care. I like the job and most of the people ;) I do miss my Walgreens family and the regulars (definitely not Lance). But it was a much needed change. Remedi has it's share of drama too, but for the most part it's fun...depending on which pharmacist is working :)
Bella has changed sooo much! She's going to be 15 this year! Can you believe it?! I can't and it scares me that she's going to be driving next year too!

This is from David's wedding

I also got a puppy last year :) Miley..she's been a handful (and one of the biggest dogs I've had) but she is just the sweetest dog ever!

How could you NOT fall in love with that face and those ears :P poor thing walked like a baby giraffe because of her big paws lol Everyone falls in love with her when they meet her!

Daisy had some surgery last September and hasn't been the same since :( losing weight and having accidents. Almost wish we wouldn't have done the surgery now.

This was before the surgery and now she's confined to a baby play yard most of the day :( I'm hoping she will have many more years though, it would just kill my mom if she died :(

Sooo...me...still haven't found my sugar daddy and am not really looking either. I think I've gotten used to being alone and just being happy that way. I don't spend that much time online like I used to and don't speak to Mahir at all anymore. Not that I haven't tried, more that he doesn't want to I guess. It hurt but if he wants to throw our friendship away, that's his choice. I've moved on and blocked him everywhere...out of sight...out of mind. Hopefully he'll realize one day..hopefully.

So I'm thinking of cutting my hair shorter again. I'm on a new medicine that makes it fall out some and feel like if it's shorter it won't freak me out as bad when I see strands come out lol Here's me now and here is the way I get it cut all the time lol but maybe a little longer than that.

enough rambling for now...won't say I'll be back soon (because we all know I probably won't lol) but I'll try ;)

OHHHHHHHHHH I forgot the best news ever! STINKY IS GONE!! He moved out over a year ago and the house smells sooooo much better! Can't imagine what that new apartment smells like *gags* just SO HAPPY HE'S GONE! A BIG thanks to Ken and Amanda for making this possible

Christmas is sooo close!

And of course I haven't done half my shopping :S I wish I had more time lol Every year I say I won't wait til the last minute and every year I lie to myself lol Fingers crossed I will be done this weekend!

Bella Ice skating with Alyssa

Bella and Ken, Daddys Dance 

Amanda and Ken...The look amazing!

Ugh Diabetes...

So Waiman got me an earlier appointment with his neighbor, my new Endo (Dr Bethea) and my lab results were good on everything (cholesterol, liver etc) BUT my A1c was 9.1! It's never ever been over 8 and is usually 7 or less..so I have some work to do. She decided not to give me fast acting insulin, instead she's giving me Invokana. It makes me pee soooooo much lol it's supposed to flush the sugar out of your body and has other side effects but hopefully I won't experience any of that. I did lose 8 pounds since my last weigh in from my GP...so thats a plus :) I guess eventually she wants me to stop the Lantus and up the Invokana. My numbers are looking good so maybe this will be the right med for me.

Soo..Christmas is sooo close :( I haven't even started shopping yet! I always seem to wait til the last minute blah. Maybe everyone will be getting gift cards this year lol Just need to win that lottery (or find that sugar daddy..not sure which is easier to get). Well, off to wake Bella and figure out what we're gonna do today :) xox

I really need to keep up with this :/

So we moved again...into a house not too far from Bella :) Still at Walgreens, although I'm not sure for how much longer lol. Still love working with them but the pay and hours have got to get better. Oh! Bella turned 12 last week and looks like she's 16 (YIKES) I so wish I could turn back the time and make her 5 forever lol

She started playing the flute and is in the morning radio announcements too (GO Bella!) She's grown into such a beautiful sweet  young lady. She added a few new members to the household too lol Harley and Jackson..they are adorable :)

So about me...I asked to be taken off the pills and put on insulin, so thats going ok so far. I go see an Endocrinologist in a few weeks so see if I need a fast acting also. Well..enough for now..Walking Dead time ;)

xox

Been a loooooong time huh?

 Well, I dunno what has changed. I guess we moved into an apartment since I posted last. I don't mind it, we're close to Bella so thats nice. Work seems to suck a little more each day. Hours being cut means paychecks are a sad sight. Can't depend on a sugar daddy and suppose I need to go look for something else. I just hate the thought of starting over completely *sigh*

 Bella has grown a lot, she seems to think that she's 16 and not 10 :S I don't want to see her grow up any faster than she already is! Here's a couple of her newer pics...

Hope it doesn't take me a year to post back here ;)

My Member of the Week pic from ZG

I was asked to be member of the week several weeks ago and was happy they asked :P Getting one med cut in half and one taken away completely was a big deal to me..I am working hard and I will get to my goal!

Lazy day..

So I got my hair cut Friday...shorter but not too short lol I like it and it feels so much better. So today I HAD to get my nails done because they were looking  bad lol and I have Marisa's wedding to go to tomorrow. Went with white this time..boring, I know :O Didn't do much all day, grocery shopping and out to dinner to meet Mattie..thats it..yes I am lazy lol

So here's the new do

now to just get rid of those damn bags!

Bella and a friend skating

At the lake house

her dance recital get up

lazy like her auntie :P I LOVE this kid! 

All grown up :(

     Ruth and I at PF Changs for Amanda's Bday

Holy Shit! Been so long...

I swore I would blog and seems I haven't in 7 months :O Yes, I suck!

Geez I dunno where to begin..we moved in April. It was sad to leave all the memories but it was good to start fresh. The new place is closer to Bella so thats a plus ;)

Started going to Zacharias Ganey Institute April 29, 2013 and in my 10 week 'boot camp' I lost 11 pounds of body fat, gained 2 pounds of muscle, lost over 6 inches and 6.76% body fat :) I actually love going too! I'm determined to make me a better me! A healthier me too! I actually got to drop one of my diabetic meds :D in a couple months when I go back I may get to be taken off the last one too *fingers crossed*

hmm lets see..Issey is planning on visiting me in August :D Nervous and excited to meet! Hope he brings ear plugs for my snoring lol <3 p="">
Planning a trip to see Twinny and Ryan in April...can't wait for this..been dying to meet Ardee for years and hopefully I will finally be able to!

I need to win the lotto

I really do! I would share..I promise! Have you ever written down what you would spend the millions on if you won? lol I do it all the time.  I just want to not have to ever worry about money again lol buy a new house..a car or 2..travel and meet all the awesome people on FB and definitely share some too. But of course nobody like me ever wins..ever :/ It must be a conspiracy! Geez, I'm so tired I sound retarded lol G'mornight xx

Live Love Laugh

Bella and her lil friends

New Year....New Me?

Ok..haven't thought too much about resolutions since I never keep any I make lol I did make a memory jar with Bella today, to write anything good that happens to you and put it in the jar and read them all on New Years Eve. Turned out pretty cute :)
Bella's

and mine

it was a cute idea and I think she liked making it :P I also have to come up with 5 craft ideas to mail out this year for a status project on FB lol Im excited to make things now.

Work is the same...I miss my shorter shifts but love more money! Tried to get a new car but because they cut our hours last year, it screwed up my chances. Blah

Well..I am determined to make this a better year than last...and am going to make sure Im healthier :)

OHHH yeah..Donna is being a complete drama queen bitch..had to block her number and a few of her others or friends numbers. I really want nothing to do with her right now, or ever I think. 

And I have decided not to clean our bathroom ever again lol cost me $220 to call someone to unclog our toilet since I flushed a sponge by accident lol Fucker only spent 2 min getting it out but charged over $200! GRRR doesn't pay to be nice.

Some bitches just need a punch in the twat ;)

You'd think 2 old ass women would have better things to do than to act like lil jealous bitches on the internet. Darlene and Rae really might not be female because they really seem to have a hard on for me...kinda scary in a stalkerish kind of way lol They MUST have miserable lives if they have to keep bringing me up in conversations AFTER I have blocked them for months. I don't mind fans...but those kinds of fans, I'll pass :)

On to more important things..Christmas is coming a lot faster than normal lol I will be done my shopping next weekend (THANK GOD) and can't wait to start the new year. A new me. A new everything!

Bad night

Had a great bday and a wonderful Thanksgiving...have a lot to be thankful for but it still makes me feel sorry for myself :/ been crying for an hour and its just that I miss someone I used to talk to daily and even though I consider myself in a long distance relationship I still feel so alone :( everyone has someone here and I don't. One of my biggest fears is dying alone and I don't want that. I don't want to fell sorry for myself either but that's what depression does.

My sugar was also really high today...over 400! That's really serious and really bad. If its still bad when I wake up then I will go to the ER. If its not one problem it's another :/ 

I need a pity party bad 

Spent the day with Bella :)

We decided to make Halloween cupcakes :P was pretty fun lol and not so messy :)

she let me play with her hair :P

The finished product......