sucks..

Been slacking a lot lately..with this blog, my health, my family..everything. Sometimes I just feel like theres no use trying anymore. Don't get me wrong, I don't plan on doing anything to myself (even though the thoughts are always there). I just feel worthless and embarrassed of where my life is now. I will never meet Mr. Right..destined to be alone forever. I wouldn't even care if he was Mr. For Now..I just want someone to tell me I was the last thing he thought of going to bed and the first thing on his mind waking up. I want to feel important and needed by someone. I want to feel what it feels like to be loved again, to cuddle and just have someone hug me. That isn't too much to ask for is it? I wouldn't think so. Maybe I just need to accept what is. Why is it that I can find someone who cares about me, only he lives in another country? Karma maybe?