Some bitches just need a punch in the twat ;)

You'd think 2 old ass women would have better things to do than to act like lil jealous bitches on the internet. Darlene and Rae really might not be female because they really seem to have a hard on for me...kinda scary in a stalkerish kind of way lol They MUST have miserable lives if they have to keep bringing me up in conversations AFTER I have blocked them for months. I don't mind fans...but those kinds of fans, I'll pass :)

On to more important things..Christmas is coming a lot faster than normal lol I will be done my shopping next weekend (THANK GOD) and can't wait to start the new year. A new me. A new everything!

Bad night

Had a great bday and a wonderful Thanksgiving...have a lot to be thankful for but it still makes me feel sorry for myself :/ been crying for an hour and its just that I miss someone I used to talk to daily and even though I consider myself in a long distance relationship I still feel so alone :( everyone has someone here and I don't. One of my biggest fears is dying alone and I don't want that. I don't want to fell sorry for myself either but that's what depression does.

My sugar was also really high today...over 400! That's really serious and really bad. If its still bad when I wake up then I will go to the ER. If its not one problem it's another :/ 

I need a pity party bad 

Spent the day with Bella :)

We decided to make Halloween cupcakes :P was pretty fun lol and not so messy :)

she let me play with her hair :P

The finished product......

The before and afters

So I decided to paint my room this week...such a fucking task! If I knew it was gonna be all this work, I would have waited lol Anyway..the tree looks HORRIBLE but Im stuck with it for now lol

The after pics :)

My back, arms and feet were so damn sore afterwards lol I do LOVE the blue color and may paint over the tree or just re-do it darker. 

Spoiled lil girl lol

Bella got her iPad3! I don't even have one lol She was shocked lol Ken wrapped it and put it in a bag then put it in an air mattress box and when she opened it she actually thought she got an air mattress and even though she was disappointed on the inside she smiled and said she loved it like it was the best present she could have gotten lol she's so sweet. She was so shocked to see it :P

Happppppy Birthdaaaaaaaaaaaay Belllllllllllllllllllllla!