Spent the day with Bella :)

We decided to make Halloween cupcakes :P was pretty fun lol and not so messy :)

she let me play with her hair :P

The finished product......

The before and afters

So I decided to paint my room this week...such a fucking task! If I knew it was gonna be all this work, I would have waited lol Anyway..the tree looks HORRIBLE but Im stuck with it for now lol

The after pics :)

My back, arms and feet were so damn sore afterwards lol I do LOVE the blue color and may paint over the tree or just re-do it darker. 

Spoiled lil girl lol

Bella got her iPad3! I don't even have one lol She was shocked lol Ken wrapped it and put it in a bag then put it in an air mattress box and when she opened it she actually thought she got an air mattress and even though she was disappointed on the inside she smiled and said she loved it like it was the best present she could have gotten lol she's so sweet. She was so shocked to see it :P

Happppppy Birthdaaaaaaaaaaaay Belllllllllllllllllllllla!

It amazes me

how someone who claims to love or care about you can talk to you like you're shit. To mock you and intentionally piss you off. Nice huh? Im so over all this bullshit, not the first person to do it and probably not the last. Does make you wonder if anything that was said was the truth. So angry and hurt but I'm not gonna let it get to me right now..gonna make a drink and have a vicodin :)


Bella's b-day is tomorrow :) she's gonna be 10 and growing up sooo fast blaaahh. I plan on going over after she gets out of school and hang out with them. She doesn't want a party (shocking) and wants pizza and cake for dinner lol I wish I could keep her a child forever.


I skyped with him today..felt good..good to see him smile and I said I wouldn't cry and I didn't lol Maybe I need a break from the net (like that would happen pfft) but seriously..if I could just get away from it all then maybe I would be better? I dunno..


here's Hannah and Bella with a cake/kitkat/m&m cake Amanda's friend made lol

Someone cut my credit cards

I can't believe I spent $150 on fucking curtains :O :O :O at least after I paint it will look nice :) So I will have lots of before, during and after pics. I am attempting a tree mural too *fingers crossed* I hope that it turns out well :S I'm actually excited lol my first home project on my own lol Thank GOD my mom is letting me charge the paint and supplies on her Lowes card...didn't think it would cost so much pfft. So wish me luck and expect tons of pics later this week :P


ohhh Monday is Bella's birthday and I still need to get her one more thing..just don't know what to get her. She's so hard to buy for now..not a 'kid' anymore but not grown either *sighs*

Bella and her friend Hannah :)