If I were a lesbian..

I would sooo attack her :P Radeo is soo fucking sexy!

Im a dumbass

I really am..Im sick of being treated like Im invisible unless you want something. Just tired of everything and wonder why I put so much feeling and caring into it when it doesn't feel like Im getting it back anymore :/ someone slap the shit outta me please

Slacking again..

Been exactly a whole month since I've blogged..need to change that. Things are going ok for me..He isn't speaking to me..again. One day he will realize what he's doing..I hope.

Work is better, we got more hours so Im back to full time in 2 weeks. YAY =] Ive also been taking all my meds like Im supposed to and I think it's actually helping a lot. I can definitely feel a difference now. On the downside (if you really consider it a downside) I have been drinking more. No more than 2 mixed drinks a day and it's not every day, so I don't consider it to be THAT bad.

Happy Father's Day..

I miss you :( <3

Proud of Bella :)

She won the 3rd grade Citizenship award at school :) She was voted on by all the kids as being the kindest and always positive and never judges anyone :) She was so happy, she got a certificate and a medal

YAY the weekend

Going to get out of the house and actually do something. Work was so slow and boring today and can't wait til next week to have 5 days off :P

Blah..it's almost been 2 fucking weeks with nothing but 5 words said to me :( Really? If you cared for someone, wouldn't you make an effort? I give up. I am still going to mail out his bday gift, even though it's gonna cost a shit load to mail dhl. Maybe he'll at least say thanks when he gets it..who knows :/

Drinking tonight for sure :))